Big Sigh...

I've not had a rest day in......mmmmm, can't actually remember.  And its showing.  I've mentally struggled through my workouts for the last two days and if my minds not focused and "in the zone" (I do apologise that is a wanker term but can't think how else to describe it) then I just don't have a good session.  Good in my head means walking out the gym muscles aching and sort of shaking, a tingly feeling I guess.  I've just not had it the past couple of days, since my PT session on Tuesday night, but I have been walking out of the gym feeling knackered.  So to get to the point, I'm going to listen to my body and take tomorrow off, stick with the diet but rest my body, not even a cheeky walk on the treadmill.  Zilch.

I had devised my programme with a rest day on day 4 but haven't been sticking to it.  Instead, I've moved legs to day 4 and stuck in a cardio session on day 3.  Rest day 5 - which I didn't follow this week and went into the gym for a 60 minute power walk and abs.  Its just too much and there's no point in sticking with this because I'm not putting the right level of effort in.  I just feel like I'm going through the motions and I'm easily distracted nebbing at what other people are doing.  Tonight I was even irritable at other gym users, well they were being knobs and walking right in front of me during walking lunges...

HELLO I HAVE WEIGHT ON MY BACK I CAN'T DODGE YOU

MOVE!!! 

Usually it would bug me but not distract me.  I left the gym feeling deflated even though I had completed a hard legs programme and that's not right.  Shame really, I woke up this morning feeling great.

Cardio on Wednesday was a HIIT hill run on the treadmill.  A short warm up gradually increasing the incline at a walk speed then into intervals on 10% incline and around 10.5 speed.  Blowing out my arse, this then got taken down to 1% incline and increasing the speed to around 13.5, then back to a power walk on 10% to finish.  I struggled through some core work muttering to myself this shouldn't be this bleeping hard and dragged my tired ass home.  I did meet with some friends later in the evening for my cheat meal and have to be honest other than the pudding, passion fruit creme brulee which was incredible, didn't really enjoy the food and ate less than half of my sausage and mash.  But lovely to catch up with friends and have a good chin wag.

I was really naughty today and had protein bars for meals 1&2 then a late meal 3 before training.  Indigestion on top of feeling worn out = miserable face :-(  I've just had a protein bar for meal 4 but going to force myself to cook something for my last meal of the day because that's just appalling!  If anyone else had told me that was their diet for a day I would be horrified and seeing back in black and white isn't nice reading.  I know better, and on a legs day too - silly cow.  I guess that's the purpose of this blog, making myself accountable.  Boo!

I have noticed a different in my body already and have received nice complements.  I can see more definition all over including my stomach, my worst area by far and my muscles are popping far more than they have in a long time when I'm training.  Happy days and I just need to keep this in mind on nights like this when I feel like throwing in the towel and heading off to bed with a box of crispy cakes and a chippy.

I think its time this grumpy little princess got fed and went to bed, night night x