Is It Worth It??

I'm flipping sick of

• Eating eggs in the morning
• Doing the dishes for 5 meals a day - 24/7
• Washing 2 loads of laundry a day
• Falling asleep at 9pm like an old lady
• Food envy
• Having to "explain myself" why I'm eating the way I am
• Carrying around packed lunches and cutlery
• Feeling sore ALL the time
• Setting my alarm to eat
• Setting my alarm to eat at the weekend
• Forgetting to take supplements and then feeling guilty - WTF
• Craving foods that I'd never normally be interested in but for some reason they're all I can think about
• Looking at fruit like its a treat
• Speaking to or hearing about people on similar programmes and them say its not a chore.  ARE YOU FOR REAL?!?!?
• Cod
• Green Beans

I'm not sure if this is just normal stuff or if my pursuit for balance has been somewhat skewed in the wrong direction?!?!?

Does everyone go through this pain?  Am I crossing over to the dark side of mental?  Will I ever get to the finish line?

I ponder....

I think I need to go to the shops and buy something pretty

x